After some deep thought and introspection….I realize that I’m just a very ordinary person. I even admit to myself that I’m nothing special on my own. We all would like to believe we’re special…in some way.
But truth be told, I’m just your every day kinda girl, with no thoughts of grandeur. I’ve never performed a miracle or cured a disease. I’ve never calmed a storm or walked on water. On the other hand, I’d love to be able to change water into wine. Now….that would be special. But, I digress….
Sometimes, here in my own little safe world, I ask myself if I’m hiding away from all the drama and madness that surrounds me, like a child who’s afraid of the dark. Or, maybe an insecure, brokenhearted or overwhelmed person who finds it easier to avoid the worldly drama and stay in the rut. After all, it’s easier that way.
However, my days are so much better when I give myself a swift kick in the rear and include God in my day. I remember I’m not alone in this rut. This is not where I belong. I have the help I need to get out of the dreary existence.
So I call on my Strength and Courage, Jesus! He said “all things are possible” with Him. And if I have the right attitude, while talking to Him, I feel as if I’ve grown eagle wings and can soar on the breeze.
He said if we would only believe, then we could move mountains. Imagine that…moving mountains. Life’s problems and obstacles feel like mountains at times, don’t they? But, no matter how big the problem or obstacle, I trust that He will move heaven and earth itself to come rescue me when I call.
But honestly, no matter how much I write about or believe that truth in my heart and mind I still have days of doubt and insecurity. I find myself listening more intently to the human side of me…instead of the spiritual side.
On those days I wonder if He hears me at all. It’s my doubts and insecurities that impede my progress, not His. I just have to remind myself that sometimes His answer is no or not yet. Not in my timing, but His.
Human thinking comes more naturally to us, so of course it’s a million times easier. Listening to your spiritual side is absolutely impossible to do on your own. You must seek His help. Did I mention you have to do it continually? But, it’s so much more than worth it!
Wouldn’t it be fabulous if all of this was easy breezy? We could just decide to listen to our spiritual side, or think about being in great shape or playing an instrument….and, miraculously these things happen. Well, stop that…..it’s a fantasy world. Work is involved in anything worth doing.
To quote my stepmom, “its common knowledge” that in order to get good at something or to achieve a goal, you have to practice, work, and practice some more. We don’t want to do the work….cause we’re big fat lazy babies who love to whine and complain when life gets hard. Plus, we pretty much will take the easy route every time.
If you truly have the desire for communication with Him to be as natural as breathing, it will take lifelong practice and determination. It’s not for sissies.
If only we could get rid of that pesky old spiritual battle waging within…which is ongoing for life. You can’t fight this battle on your own. So don’t even try.
Just like you, I’m a work in progress….always will be this side of heaven. There are times I remember to talk to Him many times throughout my day. Other days I realize I haven’t spoken a word to or given a thought in His direction.
My whole attitude and outlook on life is extremely affected by whether or not I include Him in my day. When I do, I’m soaring and my soul is at peace. On the other hand, when I don’t, I seem to end up reacting like a spoiled whining brat and the whole world seems unfair.
Like me, do you ever feel tired and scared of all the craziness of this world and your responsibilities in it? At times do you feel as if you don’t have any strength to carry on? Do you throw way too many pity parties? Well, do ya?
Or, say your life is perfect and nothing rattles you anymore. If you’re living the good life and you’re the best you’ve ever been….talk to Him even then. Give Him thanks for the blessings. Don’t take them for granted.
Call on Him on the good days as well as the bad days. But, if there are those days that you completely forget to include Him…forgive yourself. He does!
It doesn’t matter if you call on Him in the early morning, noon or night, or preferably all three and in between. He’s there. If you feel discouraged about real life problems & realities and your heart feels broken, please remember He said “He’ll be there”.
He waits on us….we have to make the choice to include Him. Did you get that? We make the choice.
When you find yourself weary of life’s burdens or feel empty or all alone, try this solution. Call on Him! What have you got to lose? Give it a try…talk to God. Make it a habit. Your life will thank you!
If you don’t feel like you can talk to Him because you feel unworthy, well, sorry but that’s true. We’re all unworthy. But, don’t panic because Jesus was born for that very reason. He’s done the work. He knows we’re human. He was one of us once. We’re forgiven! All He asks of us is to love, believe and trust…oh, and have faith and desire.
Faith is closing your eyes and opening your heart. Reach up and take His hand.
3 thoughts on “I’m So Very Ordinary!”
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I love this so much! You put in to words how I have been feeling lately very much 💜 I find myself at the end of the day realizing I haven’t talked to God at all. What a difference it makes
I’m glad to know others feel the same way. I’m so thankful for forgiveness….a million times a day! Thank you for your comment. Have a great day!