I don’t know about you, but my mind often has the tendency to leave the here & now and spend worry time in the past, wondering why… or the uncertain future, wondering what will be. The present has enough to handle without adding the past or future to it. Don’t you think?
To be totally honest with you, since I began this blog my mind is being attacked on all sides. I find myself crying for reasons I can’t figure out or explain. I even prayed yesterday, “God, do you hear me…..at all?”
I know in my heart that He hears me, but sometimes it seems that no answer comes. I also realize that my mind is a battlefield of spiritual warfare, at all times. I get so mad at myself when I react rashly before realizing what’s going on in my head. I have the weapons to fight the battle, but I don’t use them enough!!
What is wrong with me??? I even had irrational thoughts & feelings of anger at my late husband for dying & leaving me here alone to deal with life. And, it wasn’t the first time. Yes, I do have pity parties…..all by myself, and then feel guilty because I truly have so much to be thankful for. The main thing is His forgiveness….over & over & over again…for the same dang things!
His word says Do Not Worry About Tomorrow….Matthew 6:34. Why can’t we take this advice to heart? I guess if we could quit our worry thoughts on our own, we would feel self-sufficient and not rely on His outstretched hand of help.
The struggle is real! However, this daily struggle reminds us of our dependence on Him & protects us from self-righteous striving to be deserving of His love. We never will be, this side of heaven. Thankfully, His grace covers us and He forgives us when we slip into worry. I just pray & trust that it will happen less & less as I travel this road of life. Even if it takes saying “I trust you Jesus” 5000 times a day.
Our weapon is His word. We need to quote and/or read scripture for intercession when we realize our weak & fallen minds begin to travel back into the past or forward into the unreality of the future. And, by we I mean me!
It’s all part of the journey. Sometimes we take the wrong paths. Our enemy doesn’t want us to travel the right road or climb out of our ruts. His goal is to keep us down.
I don’t know about you, but I’m gonna fight him. I’m so thankful that God is on my side. How about you?