As I was staring out my window, day dreaming, and watching it rain today, Kelly Clarkson’s song Breakaway made me completely desert my fantasy world and say, yes, a breakaway….that’s what I need.
Do you ever just want to breakaway? That’s a word not used too often, so not much thought is given to it. It suits me at this time of my life. I want to breakaway, “make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”…..
I love my country home where I’ve lived for over 25 years. So peaceful and the nature sounds abound. It’s a fantastic place with 10 acres, including a 2 acre pond. So many old, beautiful oak & pecan trees and the closest neighbor lives around yonder. Bird and critters are the norm around here. In the fall I feel like I’m in heaven as the colorful leaves rain down on me as I walk around the property.
This was mine & Scott’s forever home. Now, that he’s gone, it’s become overwhelming to me to care for. I’ve been trying to live the same life that I lived with him, instead of starting a new life on my own.
I’m beginning to realize that this place may even be the biggest obstacle blocking the exit to my rut. All of a sudden, it doesn’t feel like the right place. I do believe that a breakaway is imminent.
I’m going to brush off my wings and learn how to fly again. It’s time to find a forever home for the life God has for me, now that Scott is gone. God, help me to do what it takes until I reach the place You want me. The rut is painfully dark…..it’s past time to see the sun. It doesn’t mean I’ll forget him or this place. It’s just time to “take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”
We never know how long we have here. It’s time to breakaway and live life to the fullest. God has given us the ability to do so many things. Not to mention, the beauty He’s given us to enjoy that we take for granted every day. His desire for us is to keep moving forward.
Cherish your memories, but live your life…in the now. I plan to take that risk, take that chance, make that change and breakaway from my past. Thank you, God, for my breakaway direction…..and for music that touches my heart and soul.