Well, here I sit on another dreary February day doing anything other than what’s on my to do list of goals. WTH is wrong with me?
Get organized and set a plan, I told myself at the first of January. So I got a fancy new planner and began to write everything down on my “to do” list. Well, so far, I’ve had to re-write most everything over again on my next “to do” list….because I just keep finding other little things that “have to be done”.
I cannot seem to stop the madness. I follow my plan for a few days, but then fall right back into my rut again.
What is wrong with my focus? Why does this seem to be so easy for others to do? Do I just have no motivation or passion? Why…..tell me why????
I’m embarrassed to even admit that I’m struggling. I’ve joined so many “classes” to help with my lack of focus and I haven’t finished one of them yet. But…..they are all on my “to do” list.
I may be struggling right now, but I’m not going to give up. God didn’t create me to sit on the side-lines all my life. I know this full well. And, that’s one of the reasons it’s so frustrating for me.
I know this isn’t the most positive blog I could write, but if I can’t be truthful about what I’m going through, how am I going to help others that are going through the same thing? If in fact, there are others……
God isn’t afraid of our weaknesses. When we are broken His light can shine through the cracks of our so-called perfection. And, if that’s the case, I should be beaming……. 🙂