Can I Be Real?

Please tell me why is it that some people know their passion in life at a very early age?  They know exactly what they want to do and go about learning how to do it.  Seemingly, with no doubts or hesitation.  They just go for it…succeed or fail.  

On the other hand, there are the people who seem to never figure out what their passion is.  Or, they give very little thought about what it might be.   They get stuck in a lifelong rut.  Don’t even ask me how I know these things……

I’ve been pondering this deep question since I started watching too much Shark Tank and Master Chef Junior.  There are 8 year old children cooking amazing dinners!!!!  Did you hear me?  I said 8 year old CHILDREN!!!!  I don’t know about y’all, but if I told my Mom I wanted to cook dinner when I was 8, she would have smacked me and told me to get outta the kitchen.  Not to mention, it never occurred to me to cook at that age.  Or invent something to take to the Sharks!!!!!

So, I decided to write a blog about being stuck in a rut.  And…I’m still living in a hamster cage walking the same path every day and seemingly getting nowhere fast.  The funny (not funny) thing about that…the cage door is wide open.  I just have to walk the effort path to the door.

Okay, here’s the deal.  Every since I started a class with Elite Blog Academy, I’ve been obsessing about WTH my rut escaping passion might be.  Everyone else seems to know.  This obsession has slammed a door in my face telling me I can’t go any further until I know this answer.  Which means, I haven’t even gone back to learn more from the lessons in the class. 

Don’t get me wrong, I love to do a lot of things.  I love exercise, music, reading, working with plants, writing, travel, encouragement, spirituality….but, when I start to dissect them one by one, I start doubting myself.  Can I write enough about this one topic?  Can I write about 100 different topics? 

So, I stress, stop, stress and then keep walking the hamster cage wheel.  I’m weak and need accountability.  It’s just too easy to slip back to easy.

But (I whine), I know this safe, familiar route I’m on.  It’s easy.  Not to mention, it’s hard out there in the real world.  It takes effort.  It’s scary…

I listened to “Do It Scared” with Ruth Soukup today (Episode 46).  It smacked me in my face and told me quit being such a baby brat and put some effort into it.  Everyone has doubts.  They said if you don’t fail, then you’re not trying. 

So failure…I’m claiming right now that I’m not scared of you anymore.  Bring it on! If I have to go through you to get to success and self identity, then that’s what I’m gonna do!

I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength……