Maybe it’s the Texas heat, or maybe it just laziness that has zapped my creative flow.
I know I need to write, but my mind is a complete blank. Well, that’s a lie straight from the pits of hell.
There are so many ideas and such crazy random minutia ping-ponging around in my head at all times…vying for attention.
I’d love attention or focus that last longer than a nano second, please. The constant din eventually turns into a big fat blank. It compares to the constant summer symphony of the cicadas in Texas.
I totally know what I’m doing…or better yet, what I’m NOT doing that brings about the same results time and time again.
Why don’t I listen to my own advice? Why do I wait til I’m at this point before I starting doing what I should be doing? And…..when I do start, I then go back and repeat the cycle. My rut deepens….
Did I mention I have a problem with procrastination? I’ll do all the easy daily chores to keep me busy. Why? Because they’re easy!!! And, they make a great excuse for me…for not having the time to do what it takes to reach my goals. Can you relate?
Now to tell you what I’m NOT doing, that I SHOULD BE doing. Here are just a few things:
- I’m not making plans – or setting goals
- I’m not writing a list of tasks toward those goals
- Therefore, no lists, no prioritizing
- I’m not setting a time limit for each tasks – or completion dates
- Since the list is nonexistent, nothing is getting marked off
- And, it feels good to mark things off your list
- To put it bluntly, I’m not doing the work required of me
Why I ask you, why? If I truly want to accomplish my goals, I know without a doubt I need to do these things. Religiously!
It’s just too stinking easy for me to blow off these steps…over and over again. Here’s a prime example for you…I started this blog three days ago. Stop laughing! I’m sooooo unworthy!!!
Yes, I’m the worst procrastinator EVER!!!! Is there a procrastinator anonymous? I guess the first step is admitting you have a problem.
That’s enough of that negativity! Now, I’ll tell you what I AM going to do. It’s time to turn things around and start calling myself a “former procrastinator” and quit listening to the voice in my head that tells me different.
It’s clear to me that marking tasks off my list gives me a sense of accomplishment. And, it’s a good feeling. I like good feelings. Therefore, I’m closing this blog now and writing a list for this upcoming week.
I will hold myself accountable and succeed or hang my head in shame and quit this blog.
One day at a time…it’s a process. But, as I’ve said before, “nothing is impossible with God”. I am weak, but He is strong!
That’s my truth and I am thankful!
Feel free to join me on this quest and leave your comments. Thanks for stopping by. Now, go start your list.